you asked me, that friday,
how i could’ve changed
if i had friends like mine
that loved me like they did.
that question was loaded
like a revolver filled
completely with real bullets
in a game of russian roulette.
Continue reading “009 – time”
do you know
i only took this subject
to prove you wrong?
it’s petty, i know,
to subject myself to something
you have no idea i do
just to prove a point
that you don’t even realise
you are making.
Continue reading “008 – economics”
sometimes i still try to find you
at the bus stop near the station
on my way to school.
i peer outside the window
even though i know
i will not see you there.
i always pass by that place
or too late.
Continue reading “007 – alone”
coconut and custard milk tea,
a drink that i never ordered
but i got anyways;
a little slip of the tongue on our first date –
i had wanted chocolate.
Continue reading “006 – dessert”
when you fall for the first time, they say it’s like a thousand roses blooming in your chest at once, but really it’s just the unsteady patter of your heart as he taps out a short response through messenger after over three hours of you sitting on your ass and waiting.
Continue reading “don’t date in high school”
that day i tried to talk to you,
one more time,
one last time,
i didn’t want anything from you,
now that you’ve changed.
Continue reading “005 – last”
you were the first person i kissed in a church –
first in the pews, as we sat looking at the stained window, the cross,
me pulling you close, so that you might stop shaking,
the anxiety ripping through you, bursting through your skin.
then second, finally, behind the piano,
backs pressed against the brick of a wall, quiet, restless,
arms around each other, hands on each other,
doing unholy things in a holy place –
Continue reading “004 – sacrilege”
i remember one of the times you walked me home
and i said to you,
“i’ve always wanted flowers”.
Continue reading “003 – dandelion”
they say beware the ides of march
but for me, it’s mid-july;
the coldest month of the year
in which you first held my hand.
Continue reading “002 – ides”
you had a smile like the sunflowers i grew
when i was young and had no one;
no matter what, they were still there.
Continue reading “001 – intro”